As a child, I always sensed something missing in my life. Our home was devoid of any trace of my mother; her photos were absent, stories unspoken, and it felt as if she had never been a part of our lives. Whenever I gathered the courage to ask, my father would retort swiftly, “You don’t need to know!” Eventually, I stopped asking, but the emptiness lingered—a lingering vacancy for the motherly love I never knew.

It wasn’t just about what was absent but also about my father’s demeanor towards me. He wasn’t mean, per se, but warmth was a quality I never received from him. My siblings basked in his hugs, were enveloped in his laughter, and showered with praise. For me, there was just a chilling silence, an indifferent gaze. As a child, I figured perhaps I wasn’t good enough. I believed that if I just tried a little harder, maybe he would look at me with the same love he reserved for them. Yet, no matter how much I achieved, his eyes carried a detached coolness whenever they fell upon me.

A pivotal moment came during a party hosted by my father’s company. By then, I was in my twenties, charting my own path but still bearing the scars of a childhood longing for my father’s approval. During the party, I chatted with Elaine, a longtime partner at the firm. She had a warm aura, one that exuded knowing and understanding beyond what was spoken.

As my father walked by, our eyes met, and out of reflex, I smiled at him. It was a natural reaction—a son’s instinctive response upon seeing his father. But his returning gaze was more than indifferent; it was cold, almost calculated in its aloofness.

Elaine noticed it too. She raised an eyebrow and said knowingly, “He hasn’t told you why he resents you, has he?”

I tried to laugh it off, although it was forced. “My dad doesn’t hate me,” I stammered.

But her look was unwavering, silently telling me not to deceive myself. “It’s strange he never shared the reason with you, particularly given the circumstances.”

My heart tightened. “What do you mean?” I asked, a knot in my throat.

Elaine hesitated, then sighed deeply. “I thought you knew. It began years ago when your mother… well, when she passed away.”

Horrified but compelled to know more, I urged her, my heart now pounding. “Tell me.”

Elaine’s next sigh was burdened. “Your mother passed away while giving birth to you. Your father has never forgiven you for it. He blames you.”

Her words landed heavily, leaving me winded. It seemed incredulous—it wasn’t something I could control. But knowing my father spent my entire life punishing me for something beyond my influence filled my eyes with tears.

Disoriented, I exited the conversation, the party feeling suddenly stifling and the voices oppressively loud. I needed to breathe. I needed answers.

After the party, I confronted my father in his study, where he sat with a familiar glass of whiskey, eyes averted.

“You blamed me,” I barely whispered. “For all these years, you blamed me for Mom’s death.”

He gripped his glass tighter. “Who told you that?” he asked, still not meeting my gaze.

“It’s true, isn’t it?” I pressed, my voice cracking under the weight of revelation. “You resent me because she died giving birth to me.”

He finally looked up. For the first time, instead of the usual indifference, I saw something else—pain. Deep, unhealed pain. “I don’t hate you,” he rasped. “But every time I looked at you, I saw her. And it hurt. It hurt so deeply.”

“So you punished me for existing?” I spat back, the mix of anger and heartache boiling within me. “You never even gave me a chance!”

He sighed heavily, looking older and wearier than I ever remembered. “I was young and heartbroken. Losing her so suddenly…I didn’t know how to handle it. Each glance at you was a reminder of that day she died. I resented that. Even knowing it wasn’t your fault didn’t change how I felt.”

I wanted to scream, to unload years of pent-up anguish, to make him understand how cold he had been. How I had fought so hard for a scrap of his affection. But as I watched the man who had seemed so unreachable reveal regret, I hesitated.

“I can’t change the past,” he murmured, pain laced through his words. “But I apologize. For all of it.”

It wasn’t enough. It would never be enough. But maybe, just maybe, it was a beginning.

I left his study that night, feeling both lighter and heavier at once. The years lost, I would never reclaim. But I faced a fork in the road, an opportunity to choose my future for the first time in my life.

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